Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Fight Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches
It began on a gloomy weekday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came quick shocks, like electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.
The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
This condition typically begin with intense pain around one eye that lasts for several hours.
About one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with sudden, excruciating agony around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.
What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.
One patient, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like many causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.
Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.
Ancient healing records suggest unusual treatments for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a European physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the disorder note this.
In 1998, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.
In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.
Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.
A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.
National guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of some people.
But leading neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are handled with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.
The official guidance need updating to reflect a